I am real,
This is about me
What i am,
& what i like.
What more needs to be described?
Sometimes I wonder if we really want to be happy because this sadness is so comfortable, you know? Being sad for so long, it lives inside of you. Maybe that's just me and I'm weird like that, whatever. :)
yeah i understand what you mean, and it makes sense that its a strong sense of comfort after its all that youve felt for so long. and for me its been my comfort for the past 8 months
we’ve all had those days where it seems like everything that can and will go wrong does. but what happens when those once in a while days turn into every single day, repeating over and over again? what makes you happy at this point? is it possible to not be happy for so long that you eventually lose the ability to be? or is it something that when it happens, and the sensation finally overcomes you, the magnitude of its greatness will be undescribable? is it just tucked so far away from bad memories, and events that have taken place in your life, that its like taking down a brick wall? that to get to the other side where your happiness is, you have to break it down brick by brick? my wall is so high right now, i feel as though it would take multiple lifetimes to bring down this onel. but i will not give up. i will not give in. i will achieve the happiness i once had. one day. one way or another, i will once again regain this wonderfull feeling everyone loves to have. i JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. i will JUST BE HAPPY. who knows, maybe one day soon, someone will come along, and help me defeat this monster of depression. maybe they’ll bring out that smile that i long to feel on my face once more. this feeling i want is fatally gorgeous. im sick of having this now distant life, i miss the way it used to be. everything made me happy, everything was enjoyable, and now i have to come up with reasons to get out of bed in the morning. im over this. im sick of being sick. only time will tell. the futures always changing. it will indeed be a personal journey, and ill find out what is behind this wave that has been so vast and over whelming. hmmm, time will tell. goodnight and farewell.
